My name is Emily.
I like to pretend that I’m deep and brooding and artsy. Bangs help.
I also like to take pictures of myself with my pets. I have LOTS of pets.
Smoochagator is a nickname my father gave me 20 years ago. I chose to use it as my online identity because it’s quirky and irreverent and fun – like me. Like I like to think of me, that is.
I’ve been an artist for literally as long as I can remember, and I began writing creatively when I was in third grade. I began anonymously blogging in 2004 as I entered a rough patch in my life. I had just left a pseudo-Christian cult-church and was about to leave my first husband. The blogosphere became my therapist and support group.
Since then I have reinvented myself online over and over again, and struggled with how much of myself to share and with whom.
I still struggle with that.
In 2008, I got married again to a wonderful man named Jon.
Jon and I are weird.
Through Jon I was blessed with a stepson named Christopher. And in 2010 I gave birth to a sweet and beautiful boy named Garrett.
Garrett and Mommy, Fall 2012.
Shortly before Garrett’s second birthday we found out we were expecting again.
In November 2012, Garrett was injured while in the care of a friend and neighbor, and died as a result of his injuries. As you can probably imagine, his loss devastated our family. I have been pleasantly surprised to find that happiness is actually possible even after such a terrible loss, and I smile and laugh every day. But part of me is broken forever.
In March 2013, Jon and I welcomed our daughter, Caitlin Ruth.
Little Bitty Bit.
She is exactly the sort of blessing we needed at this moment in time.
And in December 2014, our son John Caleb was born.
My heart is so full.
In addition to working part-time for a government contractor, I also hustle freelance gigs, keep house, and be a mommy. I’m hoping that being forced to live through every mom’s greatest fear – losing my child – will inspire me to face all those silly little fears about my art and writing and, well, LIFE. You know, what if my paintings are stupid or someone is offended by my blog post? Well, if that’s the way it is then that’s the way it is. I’m just not interested in wasting my life anymore.
Living well, loving deeply, making beautiful things, laughing, believing… that’s what I want to do.
Oh, and eat good food and drink lots of bold coffee, red wine and hoppy beer. Because life should taste good.
If you have any questions, please feel free to leave a comment or contact me at smoochagator [at] gmail [dot] com. I’m on Pinterest, Facebook, and Twitter, but the social medium I prefer most of all is Instagram, where I am currently following about three dozen different Corgis.
I created this website with WordPress and am currently using the Independent Publisher theme designed by Raam Dev. My “blessed” image header is a digital copy of an original marker drawing on Bristol board. Unless explicitly stated otherwise, all blog content is my intellectual property. I don’t mind if you want to quote a blog post or share one of my images, so long as you link back to this site so folks can see my words/pictures in their native habitat. Thanks!